♥

2010-10-24T16:50:00.002+08:00

its been so long since i last updated :D.

tmr is english paper, LOL.
and nope, i havent started studying for any paper yet.

i'm back to audition. :)))))

alright i miss you.
i dont know what to do!!!!!!!!! :(

2010-09-11T15:18:00.012+08:00

那流星闪过我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离你怎么放弃了
星空在闪烁像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候你却已经远远离开我

我要的幸福消失了你的心曾经属于我的

went to mommy's friend's house for lunch.
head home -> met grace -> train.
went to sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeshaaaaaaaa hehehe. ;)
chiong to woodlands to get LUMPY AND JUMPY!!!!!!!!!! :D
i screamed HI LUMPY down the staircase and hugged him so tight, HARHARHAR.
and sadly, lumpy and jumpy smell like you -.-

i miss my past, and i realised i havent been living my life since i met you.
so yeah. i'm glad you're outta my life ^^.
i want to thank you for all the happy times and the bullshit you put me through.
you're happy now, but i'm even happier :D .
i'd be a liar if i said i dont miss you.
yeah, i do miss you.
but i dont need you in my life since you dont even know what you want.
and guess what, i DO feel wasted.
loving someone so much, yet that someone doesnt know the definition of love.
lumpy and jumpy will be happier here, and i already told them their father is dead.
nah, im not sad, cos i'm not the one at loss.
sorry that i moved on when i told you i would wait.
one paragraph for you, done :)

hugged lumpy, jumpy and bunneary to sleep ;)
and and and and lumpy's trunk poke me awake again :DDD
hehaho. 8D

i'm done trying. if you want me in your life, let me know. bye.
xoxo.

2010-09-06T23:39:00.004+08:00

yayness :DDD
went shopping for 3 days straight ^^v.
LOL.
sunday spent $403, today spent $401.70
$1.30 difference LOL!!!!

this is so gay.
almost add up to a thousand :D
hehehehehe.

if they're worth 1 cent each,
its as good as saying our friendship is worth 2 cents.
or, are we even friends?
end of story goodbye.

science practical tmr.
stupid chicken mcnugget cheesecake.
BECAUSE OF YOU I REMOVED MY HOT PINK NAILS.
you're just evil cos i like to be gay :(

SUBMARINE BLUE SHALL COME TMR.
GOODBYE. :D

2010-09-03T00:23:00.004+08:00

i dont even know why i cried last night, lol.
when i wasnt even thinking about anything!

fucking wasted my time studying ss on wednesday.
studied during recess again,
but i fucking forgot the last factor after writing the first two factors :(
then i just left it blank.
my SBQ sucks like hell too, so i rather not talk about it.

suspect my maths will do better than ss LOL!!
this one no need miracle -.-

went for dnt,
then went to shumin's house for her birthday bash. :D
she was so touched she cried omg :O!

rushed home because leexianghao is so kanchiong! -.-
met jinquan at the mama shop's bus stop and bus-ed to limbang.
xiang hao complain i slow, but in the end he reached last.
actually went there to study for chinese/chem,
but in the end, we went to play lan. LOL!
awesomeness. boom goes mother tongue paper, yay! -.-

okay im going to sleep now.
and what the fuck, seriously.
i hope the two of them arent serious about the war.
if i like one of them back, that person wins.
WHERE GOT THIS KIND OF THING ONE.
guys nowadays.
i dont know if i want to call guys in general jerks or just some _____,
cos the two of them wanna have war
as if im some scarce natural resource or territory -.-

okay goodnight.
when the time comes,
i dont know who to choose either.
because one is someone i used to like,
while the other is the one that likes me last year and now.
either i reject both, or its gonna be a threesome. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAY BYEBYEBYE.
fuck you mt !!!!
我讨厌你华文! :(

2010-09-02T00:14:00.003+08:00

well well.
its past midnight and i'm having prelims in about 8 hours.
with so many things going through my head, i cant fucking concentrate.
thanks to you.
now now, dont get oversensitive.
they jolly well know who i'm talking about,
but maybe they dont either.

went to kbox with sc, manke and adi on tuesday.
saw huiyu, shumin and debbie there :D
hehehhe.
went home after that.
phone conference with adi and wkl.
slept at 4am :O .

woke up at 11 thanks to sc -.-
went back to sleep and woke up at 12 :(
went to yewtee mac around 3 to study, though nothing went into my head!!!!
studied till around 5, then went to disturb wy at gombak mac. HAHAHA.
dabing came after that :D
cabbed to sunshine place.
played lan with sc.

okay goodnight.
fuck you, ss .
you should go die in iraq with health problems and conflicts!!!!
damn shit.
iraq - kuwait war,
diplomacy & deterrence + international conflicts,
healthcare in sg and uk.

NICE ONEEEEEE.
stupid prelim topics, you should all go die.
including you, moron. :)

maths paper also.

what a nice birthday present for shumin, weide and xianghao, LOL!

goodnight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥

2010-08-30T23:27:00.002+08:00

-.- .
bandaged, and today no pe.
thanks to chem practical -.- ....
seriously wasted my efforts again.
im not gonna bandage ever again,
unless there's pe and
i'll put the bandage on after i change into the attire.

today was fun :D
like first time i didnt fall asleep during camy ong's class :O.
hmmm. first time i didnt nod my head off during ss either o_o .
this is so cool .

alright im going to sleep.

didnt sleep last night hahahah.
i realise that if i dont sleep,
i'm less tired than if i sleep for only an hour or two.
and my eye bags are humongous :((

kk goodnight ! ♥

2010-08-29T22:27:00.008+08:00

stayed in school till 10 on friday :(
went home for a quick bath and
went to meet sian cheong, zen, jingxiong and adi UNDER MY HOUSE LOL.
shows how long i took :x
siyi bathed so long so in the end she met me after that. :)

left to right : sian cheong, zen, jing xiong.

sent adi to the bus stop,
and crossed the road to wait for siyi at the opposite one.
and off we go to my house :D
she wanted to come over to do solid works,
then go to school together, from 8 - 12.
but end up using facebook, LOL.
we watched unriddle together on xin.msn hahahahaa.
then we play until daddy came out and said its time for bed :(
so much for the fun!
we talked till we fell asleep hehehhee.
woke up at 8 and saw siyi still sleeping so i went back to sleep
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
we finally woke up again at like 11 +
and saw the time and decided not to go already.

but then we called faris and he said teacher will extend till 5 or 6, yay!
so me and siyi went to take our bath, separately of course.
and went to school around 1plus :)

left school around 6 and rushed home to bathe
and met elaine, min2 and ivan at bugis.
watched grown ups.
that movie is kinda funny. :O
walked around blahblahblah.

reached home around 1am :}
thats about it i guess.
and i just realised its sunday today a few hours ago -.-

plus there's pe tmr.
hope my efforts dont get wasted again -.-
if you know what i mean, hah!!!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSA!!!!!!!!!
going shopping next week ^^v.
cant wait for this week to pass.
hope i sleep and wake up and its saturday/sunday already!!!!!
wooohoooooo!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D
already planned what to buy, lol. :))))))))

okay goodnight.
dont think i dont know what you're going to do okay,
JARETH TOH.
dont make me castrate you before your lover's eyes.

2010-08-27T13:23:00.001+08:00

we need to talk.
seriously.
i want to know who's lying.

2010-08-26T15:31:00.003+08:00

i'm at citech with siyi now, hehe!
trying to finish my solid works, well kinda.
wasting time actually.
deadline tmr.
chiong also cannot do finish one.
i still got the fucking folio to do.
thats worse.
presentation board is worst.
havent started.
oh fuck this shit :l

this is so confusing :(
whats happening?!
i'm like hoping for a nice talk with you,
though i suspect i'll kill you.
HAHAHAHA. :/

going for wy's band investiture tmr.
bmf all going,
but i going with siancheong and jingxiong before meeting bmf there.
heheehhee.
me, sian cheong and jingxiong are gonna wear similar clothes.
cool or whut. :)

lazy to stay back to do dnt already -.-
going home! :DDDDDDDDD

okay byebye.
lumpy, mummy misses you!!! :'(

2010-08-25T13:37:00.000+08:00

its been a month. at this time.

2010-08-24T23:40:00.007+08:00

if i told you that i realised you're all i ever wanted,
and its killing me to be so faraway,
would you tell that you love me too and then we'd cry together?

if i got down on my knees and told you i was yours forever,
would you get down on yours too and take my hand?
would we get that old time feeling,
would we laugh and talk for hours the way we did when our love first began?

would you tell me that you'd missed me too and that you've been so lonely,
and you waited for the day that i returned?
and we'd live in love forever and that i'm your one and only.

--------------
lol, i should stop giving myself hope, HARHAR!!! ._.

i dont wanna close my eyes
i dont wanna fall asleep
cos i'd miss you babe
and i dont wanna miss a thing
cos even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you babe
and i dont wanna miss a thing

lately, i've been imagining lotsa situations.
kinda private, so ask me in person :)
hate it that i dont want to be with you, yet i miss you.
hate it that i love you, but i dont want to be hurt again!
this is mad.
i dont even know what i really want.
you're more uncertain of yourself though.
from your actions and everything.
or maybe you're just desperate for a girlfriend.
or maybe, just looking for a replacement.
oh please, THERE IS NO EXACT TWIN.
you cant replace me, im irreplacable :D
i wont replace you, i'll displace you!
got learn metals? :)))
stronger metals displace weaker metals!
hehehee.

i used to dread sleeping at night,
cos i'd miss you more,
and i'd think about the routine that last happened 30 days ago.
me : hello
you : hello
me/you : bby i want to sleep already.
you : goodnight, sleep tight, sweet dreams, i love you bby, must hug lumpy, jumpy, bunneary and bobo to sleep k, see you soon. muah goodnight.
me : goodnight, sleep tight, sweet dreams, i love you bby, must hug hoppy to sleep k, see you soon. muah goodnight.
you : i really hang already ah?
me : okay.
you : goodnight, sleep tight, sweet dreams, i love you bby, muah goodnight!
me : goodnight, love you too.

now,
i cant wait to sleep.
all because i dreamt of you that day.
so i cant wait to sleep every night cos i cant wait to see you in my dreams!!!!!!!
this is mad, real mad.
tell me this is bad. :l

oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i dont even know if you're reading this.
but when you dont want lumpy and jumpy anymore,
return me k.
cos they're my kids :D
and i'll just tell them their father is dead.

im going crazy, LOL!!!!!!
i get very high, and i get very low.
i cant be normal.
they call it the withdrawal symptom.
i call it national anthem.
dangs. i dont even know what im saying :))))))
HAHAH.

surprisingly, i stayed back to do maths today! :O
im in need of a bath. got 2 mosquito bites already :(
so irritating.
did dnt research too, not bad!

I'LL SAY THIS AGAIN!!!!!
bby this is tragic,
cos we were magic :D

kk bye.

hi lumpy, i miss you,
cos i always wake up when your trunk pokes my cheek :((((

2010-08-23T10:43:00.002+08:00

i regret letting myself cry.
everytime i do, i'll end up crying for many days to come.
my eyes are swollen ttm,
but it just seems like i havent gotten enough.

i'm so stressed.
i dunno who to trust.
its like you're saying one thing to your brother,
yet she says the opposite.
then grace tells me something else.
then siyi tells me something else.
then daddy tells me something totally different.

omg omg omg :S
my brain is like exploding
and i feel so giddy
and i feel like fainting
and i feel as if i'll stop breathing any minute
and i feel like i'm gonna die.

:( if only my love will get you home.
though you're a fucking liar.

2010-08-22T18:43:00.002+08:00

fact is,
i've lost since the 14th of august.
she doesn't love you.
she's with you to haolian that a wild boar like her can have you,
and yet i can't.
you're being used, played and displayed,
yet you dont know.
you're just her bodyguard,
yet you dont think so.
i dont know how to make you understand.
i guess you have to realise it yourself.

i wonder if you can hear my heart crying for you.
this time, just this once, i'll let myself cry.
because i dont want to cry anymore.
if only telling you i missed you,
you'd keep me company though we aren't together.
if only telling you how much i love you would bring you back.

i dont even know if i even want you by my side.
all i know now is that i miss you so much that it hurts.
and it simply hurts too much to know its real.

2010-08-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

siyi says :
Wild boar , you are damn lucky that the mirror doesn't know to laugh .

HAHAHA OWNAGE.
ME LIKE.
OKAY BYE :D

2010-08-22T01:10:00.005+08:00

i recall it was you who left me,
but now you wanna call the shots.
so now im telling you it dont matter what you say,
its too little too late,
im tired of the lies and the games that you played.

look in my eyes and you will see,
im no longer the girl you used to know.
i hate to say, i told you so,
but its funny how now the tables have turned.

you had me believing that i just wasnt good enough.
now you must be tripping,
its me you're missing.
you thought you could do much better,
but it's a shame you had to learn the hard way.

it took a while to see,
but now i know the truth.

-------------------------------

最近你好吗?

最近我不好.
cant help but wonder how lumpy and jumpy are doing :/
wonder if they're getting neglected.
wonder if they're being loved. :(((((((
if you're gonna ignore them you might as well return them to me!
at least they have someone who cares,
someone who'll cover blankie for them,
someone who'll hug them to sleep,
someone who'll talk to them! :(
miss you guysssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :'(

so now i've got to take my love away.

2010-08-21T17:39:00.002+08:00

i know i shouldnt say this,
but i miss you.

though i dont want you.

2010-08-20T18:39:00.003+08:00

hehe.
going swimming later.
i've been going out everyday recently :DD .
but this time my expenses arent gay. :)
cos i got someone to pay for my everything ~~~~~ :b

i miss lumpy :(
i wonder how lumpy is doing.
i wonder if jumpy is happy with hoppy there!
okay nevermind, i shouldnt care anymore.
be happy & last long!

im gonna retake my chinese paper. lolz.
waste money waste time, but it'll be worth it if i get better results :)))

i'm gonna cut your meat wrap it with bread,
and im gonna sell the kong ba pau :DDDD .

WILD BOAR IS GOING DOWN !!!!!
loser :).

okay bye!
swimming timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :))))
meeting someone later hehehehee.

bby this is tragic,
cos we were magic. :b

2010-08-17T21:47:00.003+08:00

i miss you lumpy :( .
jumpy, are you happy with hoppy?
has daddy been neglecting you guys?
how are you guys doing over at daddy's place?

miss you guys!!!!!! :(
bunneary misses you guys too :(

2010-08-17T20:38:00.001+08:00

sending for an angel to bring me your heart.

we can go anywhere, but first its your chance, take my hand, come with me.

2010-08-17T18:42:00.001+08:00

i miss you and you miss me too.
yay!!! :D

2010-08-17T17:21:00.003+08:00

我受够了等待你所谓的安排说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带你给的全是空白一个人假日发呆
找不到人陪我看海

我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来你累积给的伤害
我是真的很难释怀

终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求别离开

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖从
我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在

而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏已经碎成太多块
要怎么拼凑跟重来

终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求别离开

终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求别离开

2010-08-16T22:39:00.003+08:00

stupid slut!
hopes sian cheong kick you fly high high.
(according to his facebook name HAHAHA) .
i'll cut off your nipples and stick them on a stick each to look like a lollipop. :)
i'll bring a scissors everywhere i go in case i see you,
so i can snip some fats off you.
i'll print a screen shot of the wild boar in maple story and paste it on a mirror,
and put the mirror in front of you where your face would be blocked by the picture,
cos you look just like it.
hehehe! :D
you really need a diet plan XD .

goodnight world!!! :}}}}}} .

2010-08-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

ah forget it.
fuck it.

2010-08-16T21:46:00.001+08:00

i hate this feeling.
i change my mind.
i rather feel nothing at all.

2010-08-16T19:00:00.006+08:00

I lie awake again, my body feeling paralysed
I can’t remember when
I didn’t live through this disguise
The words you said to me
They couldn’t set me free

Im stuck here in this life i didn’t ask for
There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

The storm is rolling in
The thunders loud it hurts my ears

Im paying for my sins
And its gonna rain for years and years

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out

I fooled everyone and now what will i become?
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?

Breathe in breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store

Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more
Breathe in breathe out
There must be something more

---

i dont want to lie anymore.
i dont want to hide anymore.
telling everyone i'm over you,
telling everyone i dont love you anymore,
telling everyone i'm happy without you,
telling everyone i dont care anymore,
telling everyone i dont need you,
telling everyone i dont miss you at all,
telling everyone i wont ever forgive you,
telling everyone i'm ready to let go,
telling everyone i wouldnt want to patch even if you wanted to,
telling everyone you cannot give me a future,
telling everyone you'd be better off dead,
telling everyone you dont deserve me,
telling everyone how much i hate you,
telling everyone its what i wanted.

going to the places we used to hang out,
going to the places we used to go,
going to the places you used to wait for my school to end,
going to the places you used to go,
going to the places we've been together.
yet i dont see you, and i think i will ever see you again.

im sick of pretending.
and i'm feel as if im going to tear apart.
i miss you so much it hurts.
and i wonder if you even know i still exist.
i forgive you bby,
and i love you.
be happy with her, goodbye bby.
if you even read my blog till now.

kill me.
i'll be happy to die in my lover's arms.
but i guess i cant be selfish.

if only telling you i love you would bring you back,
though you would come back because of pity.
if only telling you i miss you, you would accompany me,
although we arent/wouldnt be together.
sigh.

i dont know if i should bless both of you,
or wait for you.
i dont know if i should be angry,
or break down.
i dont know if i should hate you,
or cry for you.
i dont know if i should spite you,
or tell you what im really feeling.

ahliao said if you were mine, you would return.
but even if you wanted to, i guess you wouldnt.
since you already said i love you but i dont want to love you.

if only love is simple.
i love you, i miss you, and i need you.
want is out of the question.

2010-08-14T19:11:00.011+08:00

i'm no longer vulnerable to you.

if you thought i would wait for you,
you thought wrong :)
cos you're just a boy .
you think you're fucking matured just because you're 17 :D.
and everyone younger than you, some older is immature, according to you.
what makes 17 mature, when going to a church doesnt make you a christian?

understand the definition of love before you look for love.
when everyone leaves you including her,
you'll realise you're left with nothing.
cos you took the person who cared and love the most for you, for granted.

and nope, i'm not sad at all.
somehow, it doesnt matter.
cos i know i did nothing wrong.
i gave you my all and you gave me up.

which girlfriend gives her boyfriend pocket money, fearing he doesn't have enough to spend?
which girlfriend gives in, till her boyfriend said she gave in too much?
which girlfriend changed to what her boyfriend wanted, only to have her boyfriend complain she changed?
which girlfriend puts her boyfriend at first priority instead of her family and friends,
and cancels appointment with them just to spend time with her boyfriend?
which girlfriend wants her boyfriend happy, even if it hurts?
you know the answer deep down.

i've moved on.
i dont care who you're with.
last long with her ok. :)))))

if its meant to be, we'll be together again.
no matter how many promises were forgotten,
how many people we've been with,
and how much we changed.

2010-08-13T15:31:00.002+08:00

two words for you.
not fuck you.
its ......

WAH LAU!!!!

2010-08-13T13:47:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhh :(
I'm confused ttm. :(
Dunno who to believe, dunno who to trust.
Sigh. I dunno who's true and who's not.
Someone help me cos he drove me crazy T_____T
Guess you really hurt me bad.
But i guess i hurt you more :)

Sigh bye.

2010-08-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

i used to be love drunk,
but now i'm hung over.
i love you forever,
but now its over.

all the time i wasted on you,
all the bullshit you put me through.

say hello to goodbye :)

2010-08-09T13:29:00.001+08:00

i'm wanna get in trouble, i wanna start a fight.
guess what?
i'm having more fun, and now that we're done.
i'm gonna show you tonight, i'm alright.
and i dont want you tonight :)
you weren't there, you never were.
you want it all but that's not fair.
i gave you life, i gave my all,
you weren't there you let me fall.

so too bad, i dont need you. ^^
i've found my long lost happiness. :D

have been going out everyday since friday,
obviously my expenses are gay too.
havent been sleeping much.
like around 3hours a day, heh.

okay bye. blogging from phone.
now at family dinner. shesha later, yay! :)

2010-08-07T21:58:00.001+08:00

OMG THE WORLD IS ENDING!

WHY IS EVERYONE BREAKING UP!

ABCDEF!!!!!!!

2010-08-07T20:01:00.002+08:00

dont assume when you know nothing.
i dont see how i'm a lonely soul just because i went to find your friend.
and if i'm a pile of shit, the more you wouldn't be bothered about me.
you choose to.
yes, i may be unhappy cos we broke up.
but that was 2 weeks ago.
i'm not sad cos i lost him.
i'm sad cos of our hot and cold game.
i'm sure you dont, can't and won't bother to understand.
what i'm doing now is not because of him,
so dont anyhow interpret, thank you.
i still dont see why its my fault when
its her life and she has the rights to do what she wants.
its her life, give her a choice.
she'll realise it herself what's good and what's not.

and i also dont see why you two breaking up is my fault.
we agreed to sit outside.
so its my fault she told you otherwise?

and us breaking up also my fault.
when i did nothing.

maybe its not something i did, but something i didn't do.

i dont have to explain further. my conscience is clear.

2010-08-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

i think i'm dead. i can't even feel my lips.

2010-08-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

my heart is an empty room.

my heart is dead.

2010-08-01T18:17:00.016+08:00

"
___Relationships last long not because they're destined to, instead,
___it's because two brave person made the choice to keep, fight and work for it.
___Other relationships fall apart not because they're destined to,
___but because either one or both made the decision to set each other free.
________________________________________________________________________"

2010-08-01T13:37:00.015+08:00

happy 9th month to myself.

i remember how you used to pretend to take my nose away.
i remember you used to fetch me home from school everyday.
i remember you handing lumpy and flowers to me on valentines day.
i remember wearing your clothes to sleep.
i remember you cooking for me on our monthsaries.
i remember sitting near the mama shop, watching tv with you.
i remember buying teddy biscuits, and packet for you and one for me.
i remember mummy buying one white bunny for us each, you called yours hoppy, and mine's called jumpy.
i remember you calling me every night before you sleep to hug lumpy, jumpy, bunneary and bobo.
i remember you leaving me a message when you're going out, awake, or even afk.
i remember you planning for our own family.
i remember you picking names for our children in the future.
i remember you deciding what furniture to put in each room and the colours of each wall of our house.
i remember you showing me music videos, then you'd sing along.
i remember you hugging me, not only when i was feeling cold.
i remember you kissing me randomly.
i remember playing maple with you.
i remember you telling me we're gonna get married in maple.
i remember you telling me you dont want me to leave you.
i remember you telling me you'd sing me a song.

i remember you asking me to look for you, and then asking me to go home cos your friend didnt want me there.
i remember you saying goodbye.
i remember not crying till i told jingwen.

i remember everyone telling me you're not the only guy.
i remember telling them you're the only guy i'd love.
i remember them telling me its not the end of the world.
i remember telling them you gave me life.
i remember them telling me you'd find your real self one day.
i remember telling them maybe you're your real self now.

i remember returning you lumpy, jumpy and your clothes.
i remember walking away when i didnt want to.
i remember going to jingwen's house.

i remember i pg.
i remember siyi and jingwen coming over to my place, although i only wanted to see you.
i remember smoking 3 packs that day.
i remember meeting ms tan at 10pm on thursday cos she wanted to know why i havent been going to school.
i remember sleeping that night.

i remember thinking about you throughout prelim oral on friday.
i remember going home after that.
i remember sleeping, and kissing your photo.

i remember waking up in tears on saturday.
i remember ahma and baby coming to my house.
i remember drinking.
i remember vomiting.
i remember looking for you.
i remember being pushed away.
i remember the police coming.
i remember daddy dragging me home.
i remember crying.
i remember sleeping.

and now i remember, its our 9th month.
i remember your promises.
but i guess you dont even remember.
its been a week. at this time.
no other guy out there is worthy of my tears.
i didnt know you'd be this important to me.
given a choice,
i'd still choose to be with you even if i knew all these things would happen.
i'd still choose to know you at the start.
i'd still choose to love you.

2010-07-31T12:50:00.004+08:00

47 mins to 6 days.
有你我才会存在 .

guess you're happy now.
少了你生活淡的沒有味道

;/

tomorrow.
im not looking forward to it.
hope i can just sleep and never wake up.

maybe its time.

2010-07-28T14:56:00.003+08:00

nothing but a living dead.

慢慢的我已经离不开
因为我已爱上你了
没有任何原因的
如果我说爱你　
能不能永远相信
这一天我想跟着你　
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以后都能在一起
每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手
我和你甜蜜的走

:(
3 days 1hr and 19 mins, i havent gotten enough of crying.

2010-07-26T10:18:00.006+08:00

i barely survived, but i guess not any longer.
flames to dust, lovers to friends.

dont have much energy.
but its good though, 3 more kg to underweight :)
didnt sleep much on friday, like 2hrs only.
didnt even sleep yesterday, sigh.

happy 22months bmf, luv you guys!
though im not even happy to start with :/

alright, goodbye world.

2010-07-21T18:36:00.002+08:00

too many things said and done.
sure if you could be the one,
to dry the tears i left behind,
to chase these demons off my mind.

is this a fight we both cant win?
sometimes the truth is miles apart,
but its hard to break your heart.

baby i dont wanna waste your love,
though its hard to just walk on.
but will this search be neverending?
where do i belong?

maybe its me who's too blind to see that its you,
for everything i am, everything i need, lies in you.

2010-07-12T18:46:00.001+08:00

i dont understand you.
but my heart stays with you.
whatever, whenever, wherever, however.
love isn’t about having a partner without flaws,
it’s about accepting their flaws and looking beyond their imperfections.

2010-07-04T17:44:00.008+08:00

i know i'd done you wrong, i was making it up to you
i apologised in a million ways
but i thought that was that.
but i guess you got me back
didnt know it'd be like that till you did the same

now we're caught in a circle, a constant battle
the day that you hurt me
the clouds cast a shadow on us
and i hope that you're happy we're even now

before the love just turns to hate,
before i ask for you to stay,
and just before you walk away.

what is this, what happens to relationships,
started off so good and ended up so bad.
before we knew it we were at it again,
somehow i dont think we can ever be friends
wish it wasnt so but you did the same.

so we go on and on on this merry-go-round,
trying to chase a love that can never be found,
time to say goodbye and step off it now.

--

tell them all i know now,
shout it from the roof top,
write it on the sky love,
all we had is gone now.
tell him i was happy and my heart is broken,
all my scars are open,
tell him what i hoped would be impossible.

--

i think im like siyi now.
talking nonsense when i dont sleep.
sigh, give me a better excuse other than :
1. you're not the right one for me and im not the right one for you,
2. you dont love me as much as before,
3. you dont like how i treated you last time.
4. you think we cannot last.

havent slept since wednesday night.
havent eaten since thursday recess.
amazingly, im neither tired nor hungry.

fix my heart before you leave.
if you love me, why are you giving me up?
i love you bby, no matter how much you're gonna push me away.

sayonara.

2010-07-02T01:13:00.001+08:00

how could you be so heartless?
i dont find it stupid to die for you,
because you're all that i want and all that i need.
why are you imagining life without me?

2010-06-29T18:39:00.004+08:00

though my heart beats for you.

ever since when couples 'take revenge' on one another?
you dont like something, i do it, you get pissed off.
i dont like something, you do it, i get pissed, you get pissed at me.
what the fuck.
you only became like this after you went to that school.
so tell me.

before dinner that day, you were pissed off when i did nothing.
when you saw him, you were all smiles.
then after walking away from him, you're back to pissed mood.
i asked you whats up with that mood swing,
you said 'i dont know.'
do i look like an idiot to you?

you said you were gonna study for the sake of our future.
you told me you'll be going to school the next day for days.
you didnt.
so either you dont care about our future, or you're expecting me to feed you.

i dont even feel as if you love me anymore, though you say it every night.
i really wish i could say 'back to square one.'
because everyday that goes by just gets worse.
if only, we were back how we used to be.
i guess thats too much to ask for.

2010-06-18T16:35:00.003+08:00

elaine ah, mr smiley i make one of course cute la.
HAHAHAHA.

went out with elaine and minmin ytd.
halfway elaine went to esplanade to watch ivan's concert.
ivan never tell us he got concert.
BOJIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
then minmin and i walked till our legs hurt.
wanted to buy something but i was short of $7.
fuckinggggggggggggg hell.
and i saw a tee with patrick on it.
DAMN BLOODY CUTE I TELL YOU.
and it costs $39 LOL!
but i want it :3
shall buy it tmr or something :B

headed home after that.
earlier than usual.
more like earlier than daddy expected, HAHA!
met bby downstairs and stayed with him for awhile.
then bby went home and i went into the room to listen to sissy's complaints.
talked to bby and fell asleep.
i like how my day starts and ends with him.
but i hate it when he ~~sleeps~~ hibernates.
can you tell me who can sleep for more than 17hours? ._.

my god.
alright.
im hoping minmin can download maple so she can play with me.
hehehehehe . :)

i miss debbie, huiyu, jany, kailin, pearlyn, sherrise, shumin, siyi, wanyin!
(in alphabetical order :D )
so long never go out with sally liao. boohoo.
like damn long since we celebrated bmf's monthsary :(
i miss you siyi,
cos its good to know you cant be separated with your
stupid and childish jokes HAHAHAHA. :D

kthxbye ~

2010-06-11T10:39:00.004+08:00

lol.
you're over sensitive.
not talking about you,
you think its you.
then you make a great hoo-ha about it.
funny when you think of it this way.
yeah, now im talking about you, yes you. :)
the way you live off others really irritates me ttm.
is it that hard to live within your means,
or have you fed off people for so long that its so hard to change right now?

one thing im gonna say,
you think i dont want to pick up your calls that time.
i was having dnt, stupid.
refer up there that you're over sensitive alright.
stop blaming and cursing others when they did nothing wrong.

8 - 6 from monday to wednesday.
wednesday had dinner together. so fun!
faizal and his stupid accent performing magician tricks;
how kiasu faizal, faris and syakir were.
(cos the teachers bought alot of food. then they took so much to our table.
can compare it to how much those typical kiasu aunties take during buffet
even if they cannot finish eating.)
fun though.
took a class photo with mr jalleh for remembrance cos he's leaving.
and the wings breed dog stand beside me -.-
we all climb on the cupboard thing ma.
then he geh jio also climb.
but its like he knows EVERYONE doesnt like him -.-
wth. go gym less than 2hr got muscle sia.
who're you kidding.
no one believe,
then you say you got wings.
dont lie la, you ask mr ralph how many years he took first
then you come boast. no point farting cold air.
you drink red bull too much man. (red bull : gives you wings.)

and i made a mr smiley for bby :)
so cute can.

couldnt wake up though my alarm rang ytd.
starting to become like bby.
deaf when asleep. l;
yeah so didnt go school.

today also never go school.
just wake up also.
but i never set alarm LOL!!!!
dont care ;)

kthxbye.

2010-06-05T12:56:00.004+08:00

going to ahma's house later i guess :O.

im telling you, i wont go to polyclinic for mc anymore!!!
(unless i have limited cash!)
went to woodlands polyclinic before going to bby's house ytd.
then the bloody doctor dont want to give me an mc.
wtf, then he ask me go back to school.
waste my 5 dollars.
but i still didnt go school.
spent my whole time at bby's house trying to wake him up.
pig -_______-.

then wednesday i also went to polyclinic.
cos i didnt go for geog.
then i told the doctor i already have the medicine at home.
(i thought can save money ma.)
then in the end he give me higher dosage, which was $9.82 -.-
then, total bill was $16.80!
in the end, typ didnt know i didnt come. -.-
wtf rightz. -__-"

alright, i still have school from monday to thursday next week.
so sian! monday - wed, 8am - 6 pm. DNT!!! -.-
thursday, ss.
sigh. i hate secondary school life. so sian.
wish i could go back to primary school days.
though i would have to suffer in a secondary school once again.

okay whatever.
bby and i may get married.
hooray. -.- (refer to the underlined word.)

i dont know why you're lying.
1. to save your own face?
2. to make it sound as if its my fault?
3. you think by doing so you have more friends.
when they do know that you're lying, you'll lose everything.
trust me on that.

i dont know why you want to quarrel with me.
but you :
1. want to quarrel, ask people to quarrel for you.
2. want to settle, ask people to settle for you.
my disappointment in you is double your unhappiness towards me.
so get a grip.
if you do regret, im telling you now its too late.
maybe you should refer to your old blogs and see the happy times we had last time.

if you're unhappy about this part, do what you do best - complain :).
see who entertains your lies.

kthxbye.

2010-05-26T17:53:00.004+08:00

the saying,
dont judge a book by its cover,
and wolf in sheep's clothing defines you totally. :)

long hours of dnt these few days.
must use new panaflex. HAHAHAHAHA.

oh.
i passed ss for the first time. (did i already mention that in prev posts?)
but wtv. so kinda happy.
but i'll do better.
L1R4 30. LOL!!!.
i need like half to get to the course i want.
fishballz.

more and more lifeless people nowadays.
the useless girl from 2a is one of them.
lame la, stare stare people then still complain to your boyfriend.
wtf, you stare people also not people stare you.
dont want people see you then too bad la.
dig out your eyeballs to blind yourself.
you live, dont want people look at you.
die, people also look at your photo on the tombstone what.
no life.

cant be bothered to waste my time, energy and saliva on that girl for now.
see what she does then decide again, hah!

ps. you suffer from coprophagia. :)
definition :
noun: eating faeces; in human a symptom of some kinds of insanity

because, you eat my shit.
kthxbye.

2010-05-21T18:05:00.001+08:00

bye PLK _l_ :)

----

what the fuck.

do you want.

from.

ME.

2010-05-18T14:36:00.008+08:00

爱究竟伤了谁救了谁
流泪的流泪
欣慰的欣慰
爱究竟有多累
有多美
伤悲的伤悲能绝对 :)

hehehehe.
today no school.
but im so fucking bored okay. l:
i think im hopeless. HAHAHAH!
go school, sian.
stay at home, sian.
go out, no money - sian.
LOL!!!!

daddy's at home, cant go to vivian's house.
sian.
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maybe gonna fetch bby later.
if daddy allows :D
but if daddy dont let then i dont go loh,
cos daddy's sick, idw to aggravate his illness :B
alrightz.
toodley.
i think i'll go back to sleep.
nothing to do.
wake up later to see if daddy lets me go out. HEHEHEHEHE!!! XD

&& shumien, cheer up! :D ♥

☺

2010-05-15T23:26:00.002+08:00

first things first.
so many people think im talking about them.
nonono!
but i dont understand.
if only you do those things then you'll be guilty and think its you what.
if you didnt do any sort of things that i listed and bitched about,
then it cant be you right!
haiyo.

went to ion today with older sister.
spent like 163 just on makeup LOL!!!!!!
but mostly her. i only spent 79.
less than half. but somethings we share.
so 79 is in addition of mine and half price of what we share :)
went to meet elaine after that.

wanted to go vivian's house at first.
but then i remembered mummy saying something about ahma nowadays very giddy.
then i went to surprise visit her with elaine! :D
ahma said she almost kena stroke l:
then dabing so cute, msg me to ask ahma take care. hehe.
went home after that.

sigh.
you ask me to stop thinking too much.
then what you expect me to think?
im starting to lose trust in everything you said before.
and i realised its always when you go out with him,
i'll cry like some mother fucking nugget.
you promised bby, you promised.
and you broke it.

goodnight people.
hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

2010-05-14T17:43:00.001+08:00

in your face.

yay bby's coming :)
if bby's going out tmr,
then im going over to vivian's house for mahjong :D

heehee.
today dnt gg.
chinese oral even more gg.
i keep like then when just.
LOL!!!!!!!

kthxbye. i luv bby :D

2010-05-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

stupid bitch.
you should like go and die please.
take it as a request.
you think you're perfect?
oh please, no one is perfect on earth.
get a life thinking you can twirl everyone around your finger.
slut.

oh! taeyang's wedding dress translation. :)
here it is.

sometimes you cry when you have a fight with him.
i become hopeful when you feel sad and blue.
my heart aches secretly,
then just a hint of your smile makes me feel fine again.
i hold my breath, bite my lips,
to keep you from figuring out how i feel about you,
cos then we would drift apart.
please leave him and come to me.
baby, please dont take his hand,
cos you should be my lady.
i've been waiting for you for so long.
when the music starts, you'll vow to spend the rest of your life with him.
how i prayed every night this day would never come.
the wedding dress you're wearing;
its not me next to you.

you never knew how i felt about you and i hated you so,
sometimes i wished you would be unhappy.
now i have no more tears left to cry,
when im alone i talk to myself like you're here.
i've felt so restless every night.
maybe i've known all along this would happen.
i close my eyes and dream an endless dream.
please leave him and come to me.
baby, please dont take his hand,
cos you should be my lady.
i've been waiting for you for so long.
when the music starts, you'll vow to spend the rest of your life with him.
how i prayed every night this day would never come.
the wedding dress you're wearing;
its not me next to you.

please be happy with him so i can forget you,
please forget how miserable i looked.
its going to be unbearably hard for me for a long while to come.
baby, please dont take his hand,
cos you should be my lady.
i've been waiting for you for so long.
when the music starts, you'll vow to spend the rest of your life with him.
how i prayed every night this day would never come.
the wedding dress you're wearing;
its not me next to you.

alrights night.
got dnt paper tmr.
yawn :O .
didnt study at all.
i left the paper in class like a week ago LOL!!!
gg (Y).
(bah)

2010-05-12T12:48:00.006+08:00

this is the lyrics of 2am's cant let you go even if i die.
the one that made me cry. l:
you have to know how it feels to lose someone first.
if not you'll think its crap.

regardless of age, it hurts all the same.
i dont know the world well doesnt mean i dont know pain.
why did you lie that everything will be okay?
this broken heart cant be fixed easily.
how will i live without you?
so, even if i die, i cant let you go.
how can i let you go?
if you're planning to leave,
then fix my heart so i can at least live on painlessly.
if you cant, then since i wouldnt be able to live,
i cant let you go even if i die.

now matter how much you push me away,
i will hold on to you till the very end,
so you wont be able to go anywhere else.
if you're really leaving then lie.
lets meet tomorrow with a smile.
then say you were joking about breaking up.
otherwise even if i die, i cant let you go.
how can i let you go?
if you're planning to leave,
then fix my heart, so i can at least live on painlessly.
if you cant, then since i wouldnt be able to live,
i cant let you go even if i die.

we spent so much time together,
how can i live alone now?
i cant do that, i cant.
even if i die, i cant let you go.
i really cant let you go.
how can i let you go?
if you're planning to leave,
then fix my heart, so i can at least live on painlessly.
if you cant, then since i wouldnt be able to live,
i cant let you go even if i die.

heehee.
okay. bby get well soon! :)
i feel so relieved.
left one paper,
tmr no school! (L).
friday got dnt.
ohya guess what,
english oral, I KENA JOYCE LEE SIA.
lucky i talk, not she talk.
if not must install umbrella within my hair -.-

ohyaaaaa!!!!
mummy went sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeshaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sia LOL!!!!!

2010-05-10T19:54:00.003+08:00

IM A SINGLE EYELID MONSTER OMG.
all thanks to bby :(
but everything's fine now :)
thank god.

hehe. bby says if i not naughty he'll still marry me next time.
yay! :D

i forgot to bring tie today.
but never anything ;duh.
i pin my hair up today not because i scared spot check la!
is i friday nothing to do then i cut my own hair.
HAHAHAHHAHAA.

this is how i look like. LOL!!
although not much difference but then looks kinda weird hehehe.

okay toodley!

2010-05-09T10:20:00.001+08:00

since he's more important than you,
go date him.

idk what to do already.
if your idea of our relationship is just to smoke together,
lets end it right now.

call me unreasonable, petty, bitch.
i dont owe you anything.

2010-05-07T15:07:00.002+08:00

part of the game, not.

well, the truth is that i've never felt part of you guys.
you can leave it at the back of your mind, but you cant evade it.
its either you dont think of me when planning to go out,
or you simply dont like me.
if so, dont talk to me. i'll get the hint. thanks.

i dont control you,
because i love you.
the reason i wont stop you from going out with him
is because i know he's your friend.
i cant be selfish just because aku tak suke dier.
but i get pissed with you when you go out with him.
i know im petty, i cant help it.
hate is a strong word, but i hate her, cos she's his friend.
and she loves you.
she should get her asshole fucked one day, seriously.
or i'll just take the bamboo pole that auntie uses to hang clothes
and shove it up her wet hairy pussy.
mother fucking slut .

i hate it when you only talk to me when you only want things from me.
since you dont like me/us/the rest of the world, then fuck off la.
no need to act as if you're one nice person when talking to me alrights.
since you badmouth everyone even your close friends,
dont expect me to believe that you never even badmouthed me once.
simply speaking, it isnt possible that you badmouthed everyone except me.
hard to believe.
i aint stupid, fyi.
there's a reason i can pass exams without paying attention/doing homework/studying.
and you cant. :)

and i hate it when you love his money.
although, im not even close to/related to him in any way.
being in a relationship doesnt mean you have the right to spend all his money.
thats a loser's thinking by the way.
and stop thinking that guys have to pay for your everything.
there's a reason why years ago women fought for their right to work.
there's a reason why education is now provided to women and not in the past.

seriously, wake up your idea.
it isnt as if you're poor.
you're simply too greedy.
wanting things for yourself, even if it means you'll lose face.
talking about face, i dont even think you have one.
all the things you've done, you dont deserve one.
and even if you have one, you wouldnt have the guts to show your face to the world.
you should be sorry for yourself.
im sorry that i was your friend, and you even categorised me as your best friend.
define friend, friend.
i dont have a reason why i should talk to you.

damn! people nowadays.
no limit.

well, i failed geog.
expected.
just because i cant memorise, and i did a question i dont even remember learning before.
which means i have to get 32.5 for social studies to just pass.
i'd rather just flunk it.

ahpear didnt come today.
so sad. haiz.

bitch.
sister/daddy locked the comp.
i cant motherfucking play audition.
make my mood worst.
oh sucker.

im so gonna bathe.
weather's so hot.
making my blood boil more.
hah!

hopeless creatures, off to hell you go.

2010-04-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYA! Y

i feel so damn bloody exhausted.
just two days of examinations drain like gazillions of my brain cells.
english paper today, easy.
ytd, mt paper. first time i forced myself to not leave blanks.
though i left one la, cos i totally didnt know how to read that question.

im dead.
tmr's geog paper.
i understand everything.
but i cant seem to remember.
fucking shit.

tmr's russell's birthday,
no use even if i wish him, cos he'll be celebrating with his girlfriend.

saturday 6th month yay! :)
monday no school yay! :D

i think i'll just screw geog paper man.
just fuck it. totally.
nights.

2010-04-24T21:47:00.003+08:00

this is so saddening.
our class is going downdowndown.
ms lim leaving, ms teo leaving, mr jalleh leaving,
mr michael tan left(counted la), ms fong wants to leave.
if like that then all we have left is liew wei yang and chen zhuang fei.
die la. even if only ms lim leave, our class in havoc already loh.
the rest go, is as good as not having a school to go to.
the guys especially, the few of them.
ms lim here, they're already so... childish.
without her to supervise, can might as well send them to kindergarten already.

oh wells.
have to go back to school almost everyday during the june holidays.
saddddddd.
dnt camp, i dont think i'll kill me.
maths camp? totally no life man _l_.
feel so utterly dissapointed with this bloody school.
bobian o's coming.
sometimes i really feel like giving up.
the stress the national exams are feeding me
is growing and i feel like exploding sometimes.

i was so bored that i calculated all those clothes i wishlisted in audition.
and in total i need around 340600@cash. LOL!!
and its only now.
imagine if there's an update and there're more things i need to buy.
gg hahahhaha!!

okay byebye.

2010-04-17T22:59:00.004+08:00

was playing my games halfway yesterday and
bby called me to find him to watch kickass which was starting in about 2 hours.
prepared within record time (like seriously, never prepared faster than that before)
and cabbed over to grand cathay.
fucking traffic jam made me late.
$30 flyyyyyyyyyy.
in the end, watched the 9.40 show.

was so shy when i first saw shirley and ian.
but afterall, they were friendly.
i told them blonde jokes and they said the jokes werent funny, i was funny.
cos i was laughing at my own joke :(
see the blonde jokes below. l:

was slacking outside and i saw eileen mah :D
talked and bitched about people, then guess who i saw -.-
CLEMENT TEOW OMG.
didnt realise he was with eileen LOL!!!!!
didnt recognise either HAHAHAH.

practically waited for the movie for about 1hour plus before watching the movie.
shirley and ian left first, so left me and boyfriend.
got one uncle damn disgusting,
he went to the ashtray above the dustbin and smoke the cigarretes there.
LIKE DAMN DISGUSTING. WHAT IF ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO SMOKED HAS AIDS.
or what if he smoked mine -___- eww omg.
headed to the cinema with eileen mah, clement teow, gabriel and denise
(i think thats her name, whatever).
oh ya, had to sit at the 2nd row from the front cos
by the time i wanted to buy the tickets, it was selling fast. dang.
nice show :D
i like hit girl. solo sia! :D
and i like that actress also,
just realised i watched alot of the movies starring her.

no more bus back home so called daddy over to fetch.
sent gabriel and eileen mah home before heading home.
boyfriend stayed over, yay! :)

boyfriend just left awhile ago.
going to sleep as soon as i finish up with my games :}
alright, im a happy girl!
shall not think of negative things,
do myself no good, right?

no matter what happens,
whether you want to solve the problem, it all boils down to you.
dont expect your problems to be solved by crying, swearing or complaining.

joke 1.
why did the blonde wear condoms on her ears?
cos she dont want hearing-aids.

joke 2.
the blonde went into a furniture shop.
blonde : i want to buy that tv.
salesman : no, you're a blonde.
so the blonde went to dye her hair and went back to that shop.
blonde : i want to buy that tv.
salesman : no, you're a blonde.
so the blonde went to change her looks, and went back to that shop.
blonde : i want to buy that tv.
salesman : no, you're a blonde.
the blonde was damn angry,
so she cursed and sweared asking him why he did not sell her the tv.
salesman : thats a microwave oven.

joke 3 (taken from advertisement)
blonde went to a library.
blonde : can i have a coke and a burger?
librian : no, this is a library.
blonde whispers : can i have a coke and a burger?

seriously, not funny meh? :(

okay byebye. :D
me luv boyfriend hehe.

2010-04-10T20:18:00.008+08:00

just felt like blogging for no particular reason :D

went to school today x.x
practically dragged myself out of bed. sigh.
havent been sleeping enough for a long long time. :l

went to have mac breakfast with boyfie :D
thats why i was late for dnt HAHAHA.
who cares since i reach same time as mr jalleh!

did my cardboard model till 12+ .
mr jalleh ask if i wanna go home to complete or stay there to complete.
obviously i choose to go home LOL.
citech's so cold for bloody hell's sake.

went to bpp with momkins and bought many things.
just from watsons spent more than $100.
cos of mom lo, typical singaporean.
usual price $3.90 .
buy 10 get 1 free , then 1 each will be 1.90 -.-
is like alot of things redundant.
&& mommy bought me a new straightener yay!
like after 10000000000000 years.
the result of my straight hair turning curly in the middle
of the day is the result of my spoilt straightener hahaha.

i need to save money.
i wanna buy alot of things and i dont want to rely on my parents. (as if)
there're just some things they wont pay for, eg : bags.
and the funniest thing about mom is,
she ask me go shopping.
when i go anywhere else, no matter how much i spend, she wont kp.
but everytime i go cotton on to shop, she kp even if i spent $60 .
weird shit.

oh anywaysssssss.
i think i should continue with my product model soon.
dont wanna stay up tmr or on monday to finish up, heh :D
boyfriend's so sweeeeeeeeeeet.
fever today but woke up early in the morning to fetch me and wait till i end sch.
love you alot bby.
get well soon! :))))))
though sometimes i feel that i'm not good enough for you.

tata.
for some people, even heart transplant cant help.
not that they're ugly, but people get disgusted by their actions :)
if you're willing to change, i'm sure they'll be friends with you once again.

kthxbye. :}

2010-04-06T23:05:00.004+08:00

unfair, unreal.

have been thinking alot just now.
i dont think i can hit less than 14 points.
daaaaaaaaaaamn.
flunk la flunk la! irritating. z.z

just now wanyin woke me up :(
she gave me a call when i was asleep,
saying she's following my boyfriend to my house.
i was like omg! -.-
and the funniest thing was i only started to sweat
when i realise i slept without switching on the fan. LOL!!!!
thought wanyin, jany, manke and crystal havent go pasar malam.
in the end, they went already.
so me and boyfriend went down.

i've never eaten the fried tofu/chou tofu/smelly tofu before.
so i go try.......
AND WTF LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the smell already horrible enough but then
i hear people say some people say it smells bad but taste okay.
so i tahan.
when i taste hor... -.-
i feel like vomitting right away la!
its like only one bite you know! !@#$%!@#$%!@#$%
the tofu got some sauce put on top one,
then the sauce got one lump one lump.
suspect its shit lor.
is like i open the container only my whole room smelt like a toilet bowl.
THAT HASNT BEEN CLEANED/WASHED/SCRUBBED/FLUSHED IN 10000000000000000000 YEARS!!!!
but hor...
i see her money box right, alot money leh!
loads of weirdos on earth!!!

okay im tired, i wanna rest. :D
the only thing that's keeping me awake
is the feeling of the tofu sliding up my throat.
really, really disgusting.
i'll never suggest/introduce that tofu to anyone man.
totally makes your mouth and room and everywhere stink.

but i love egg tofu and agedashi tofu! hehe :))))
okay goodnight.
luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvz, :}

2010-03-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

i dont need a parachute, baby if i've got you

only 4 days to complete my scaled cardboard dnt product.
stress ttm tyvm.
its not even the real product and idk why it has to be so accurate.
like stupid.
have been busy with school lately.
just wish i can quit school right now and still get my o' level certificate.
wish im like 18 now so i can legally buy cigarettes and get married. HAH.

4 days to 5th month HEHE :)))

okay im going to continue playing gangster city.
tata! :)
luv boyfriend ttm :D!

2010-03-19T16:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND!!!!! :D Y

i love you, i love you, i love you :)

2010-03-14T19:22:00.005+08:00

YAY!!!!
its finally the march holidays!
tho its only like a week longggggg.
but better than nothing :)
even one day also happy lo!

school has been a dick recently.
end late and packed with homework.
although i didnt do most. only english :}
cos i'll never get tired of doing it and i always have ideas for compo.
unlike mt -_______-

on friday,
need to stay back and do the chinese compo thing what.
then i complete one compo,
others finish both already -.-
think o' lvls gg (Y).

boyfriend's birthday in 5 days. :D
yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D .

tmr and thursday need go back to school for two hour -.-
for maths and physics i think.
okay, not sure.
lucky i not taking art. if not need go back almost everyday AHAHAHA.
dnt rocks ;)
but i think im dead cos i havent handed in my coursework :O

okayokay. im off to play social city . ehehehe.
kthxbye. toodley! :D
boyfriend i love you :)

2010-03-04T14:31:00.002+08:00

unending love, amazing grace.

15 days to boyfriend's birthday! :D
planned to celebrate for many many days :))))

saturday was ms lim's wedding,
met manke, wanyin, shasha and nicholas around 8.30 in the morning.
left at around 8.50 and cabbed to mandarin oriental hotel.
after that, went to boyfriend's house.
then blahblahblah.

mon - wed,
had some motivation workshop from 8 - 6 ._.'
played a game yesterday,
its like we have to hold on to one another,
then the coaches will pull us apart.
damn violent sia.
i keep screaming like there's no tmr.
at first she tickle me, then she massage me.
itchy you know!!! then she kinda like yank me away.
then i hold on to dabing very tightly.
but dabing also kena pull by another coach.
like gang bang sia, LOL!!!!
then dabing and me fell down.
both the coaches who pull us also fall. HAHAHAHA!!!
i fell on my butt -.-
now my backside got blueblack :(
right side have left side dont have O.O
today finally dont have to stay till 6, wahahaha.

so far,
common test result,
failed maths and chem and mt. LOL!!!!!
maths, 7/40 :)))))
i didnt even complete the paper cos i fell asleep.
then i target 10 marks, got 7. hehhee.
mt, 17/50 -.o
okay whatever, admit im hopeless in that subject.
language is a subject you cant improve by studying -.-
you have to like practice and read those chim chinese books
and go find out the definitions in the dictionary.
so mafan!!!!
physics passed by half mark -.-
10.5/20 .
but higher than expected cos anyhow write only.
anyhow multiply or divide, never write working, but correct answer.
hahahahahaha.

went through maths and physics paper today.
fell asleep in the midst of doing corrections -.-

physics gilbert tan only came halfway,
then our class was relieved by another teacher.
let wanyan play cooking mama on my ds.
she's like SUPERRRRRRRR kanchiong. LOL.

okay, boyfriend's reaching soon, BYE!! :D

2010-02-19T11:45:00.002+08:00

1 more month to boyfriend's birthday!!! :D

didnt go school today cos i havent finish my dnt.
grrr. stress sia. fml.

trying to finish up over the weekends so i can be done by monday.
left with 4 good drawings + forget what,
and chosen problem research.
chiong pmi last night lor -.-
end up sleep at 2 am.
then never go school.
wahlao. should have slept earlier.
tired die x.x

HENG I LEFT 2 SECTION ONLY AH!!!!
if not cannot sleep for the rest of the week.
but i know this is only the start -.-
still got till july to complete THE REST of the coursework.
and this is only the first few sections .____."
OHMYGOD. :O!!!!!

dont feel like going to school on monday also, HAHAHA.
cos i hate wearing tie -,-
so irritating.

later going boyfriend's house bai nian :D .
like lazy to relink everyone. but i'll just do that. l:
kthxbye. toodley!!! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2010-02-03T14:37:00.002+08:00

HIHI !!!! :D

yesterday was jany's birthday.
didnt buy her present :l

reached school kinda early today.
didnt realise i had so many miss calls from grace wu cos i put my phone in my bag.
i learn my lesson already okay!!!!

today's lessons are so dryyyyyyy.
geog's about venice and i almost fell asleep. boo.
wasted my time away during maths cos we were told to draw graphs -.-
spent most of the time talking to dayana and wanyin and adi HAHAHA.
after that, english.
ummm, forgot what we did .

then recess.
bought roller coaster cheeeeeese !!!! :D

okayokay.
then dnt.
went to 10 other's tables to sketch some ideas for them.
my god, by next tuesday im supposed to have like 15 sketches for my o's dnt!!!
and i have only drawn 3 till now -.-
siyi is so crazy okay, szb :D
sit with her cannot pay attention one, hehaho.
but i still luv her :)))
she say i laugh damn hard, she laugh more rabak lor. :(

today, pee like free flow, peed more than 4 times today in school .____.'

caution : dont take o's!!!!!!
you're stupid if you're gonna do what i say cos you'll find that you cant find a job next time, ahahhaha.
but what to do, so stressful what.

oh ya, that day go 4 farms.
the goat shit like machine gun sia.
the shit same size as the asshole.
then the shit come out like bullet come out from gun sia.
fast and small. HAHAHAH.

3 months 2 days already!! :)
luv you boyfriend. :D
lol!!!!

oh ya,
although its none of my concern,
i dont like those people who live off people.
as in like THAT GIRL,
with that not really rich guy only,
keep losing their couple rings or whatever -.-
so stupid lor, in school also wanna show off ring.
then teacher confiscate then cry. plain stupidity.
and she still expect him to pay for her anything and everything.
he already bought 3 rings for her lor.
im not jealous okay!!! if you're thinking of that.
and its another stupid point when they're not even engaged or married yet she wear on her ring finger.
think too much. HAHAHAHHAHA.

yeah and i'll hardly be online on msn or blog i guess.
no time plus lazy.
maybe weekends.
and i think im gonna shop with PEARLYN CHONG on saturday or sunday! :D
luv her ttm :DDDDDDDD
i think if one day im no longer friends with her, i'll cry like some running tap lor.
same goes for the rest of bmf also.

12th feb going to huiyu's house for steamboat :)
then that weekend not really any plans yet i guess.
CANT WAIT!!! :D

gonna buy black label or chivas for dayana's birthday.
luv her too!! :D

boyfriend's on the way from his basketball match to my house already.
luv my boyfriend so much!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))))))))
6 more years till we can even marry, wth.
LEGAL AGE FOR MARRIAGE IS 21. BITCH!!!!!
kthxbye. toodley. :D

2010-01-27T11:45:00.003+08:00

having 2hr dnt again.
jalleh isnt here today.
like sadz only, some mr huang/hwang/whatever so boring.
my god, wonder how im gonna survive through this.

really wanna tio sinjie one day.
irritating ttm.
got boyfriend only so yaya.
alamak. get a life man.
it just implies that you're with someone for backup.
do i care? no. :)
one p gone from my class, now there's 2 left.
still disgusting as ever, but i cant do anything.
cos they dont even want to quit school or change class i guess.

okay bye. :)
boyfriend got match later.
maybe going to watch :D
friday going farm, WOW -.-
cya, off to facebook, though that guy's talking about our o' lvl dnt stuff.

2010-01-13T11:58:00.003+08:00

sorry i know i havent been updating l:
school reopen already.
like so sleepy everyday lor, but what to do.

having dnt now.
got my o lvl question already.
k bye! :)

ps. if you have a problem with me,
leave down your name or find me la.
show me how much balls you have then.

2009-12-30T00:07:00.003+08:00

it doesn't make sense to me, that's why i trust it.

its not that i miss him or still love him.
and i dont even know why i even started thinking of him.
probably because months ago, i came home and mummy could smell cigarette on me.
that was the night i came home after meeting him.
then just tonight, i dont know why i even worry that mummy would smell it on me when i walked pass her, although she was sleeping.

i cant say he treated me as a close friend after we broke up.
and i cant say he treated me like a stranger either.
cos we still contacted each other and met up a few times every month.
i took like 8 months to forget him, although not totally.

probably im just afraid that something would happen to us thats why i started thinking of him.
as i told you, everything i dream of would happen.
bet you didnt know i woke up crying today. heh.
i dont want to go through all the pain again.
if im gonna lose you, i wont love anyone else.
what for fall in love knowing you'd get hurt?
though he was supposed to be my last love, im glad i found you. :)

dont worry baby,
i neither love him nor miss him okay?
i hope this doesnt affect our relationship. :l

there comes a time in every life we find the heart we're looking for.
im sure that heart is yours.
i love you, i love you, i love you.

2009-12-26T23:59:00.004+08:00

if you liked it then you should've put a ring on it. :)

happy boxing day!
you can all open your presents now :b
happy 15th month bmf!!!

sorry for not updating for such a long time. hehe.
kinda forgot about this blog :DD .
& everybody's saying that boyfriend and i stick to each other all the time.
HARHARHAR. :B

went to celebrate xmas party at 3rd uncle's house yesterday.
went to granny's house after that cos grandpa just got discharged from the hospital.
kinda worried for him, always banging into things,
and both grandma and grandpa have dementia.
granny can just forget to switch the gas stove off after she's done cooking.
grandpa can just leave the tap running after washing his hands.
and no one's looking after them!!!
grandpa had to shave his hair off cos his head was bleeding.
and he can still be vain lor, LOL.
wear cap whereever he goes.
i mean like, no wrong la, but like this age already. :)
& boyfriend stayed over! :))))))))

went to minmin's house today to celebrate xmas also.
but its like boxing day today, but whatever.
went to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2!!! :D
and theodore's sorta girlfriend's named eleanor also.
hehehehe .
fat like me but not as cute as me.
HARHARHAR!!
keep your opinions to yourself k,
i dont wanna know what you're thinking. :)

went to cotton on and suddenly i saw julia.
then i look behind her and i saw vivian.
then after that i asked her where's the rest.
and guess what!!!!
I SAW WANYIN & SHUMIN AND JANY!!!
but no pear, debbie and huiyu. :(
today should celebrate ley :((((
but nvm :D

and then wanyin spoiled the joyous season by asking me to buy school shoes -.o
and then she asked me if i got do homework. .________.!!!!
like i even know have what.
some are with grace anyway, HARHARHAR.
man, school reopening soon.
bloody hell.
wonder who's the new principal next year.
and wonder who's my form teacher next year.
but i dont really wanna know either.
cos knowing means i have to go to school next year.
bloody cock.

im gonna watch some cooking show on life inspired. :)
channel 22 on mio tv. LOL!!!!
maybe, if im not tired.
5 days to a very special day :D (wink)

1. sherrise says 'got boyfriend then ps me'
2. simin and joya agree.
3. lazy buy @cash but feel like playing audition again.
got money but choose to spend on other things instead of @cash.
no money then feel like buying @cash.
you say leh, stress anot?

i kinda miss school :/ -.-
and i miss siyi alot!!!!!!!
and and and i miss dayana.
and i miss adi and bestie and manke and shasha!!!!!
oh man :(
do i have to go to school to see them ? :/

i luv theodore! :)
but i luv boyfriend more! :DDDD

2009-12-12T13:24:00.002+08:00

bury me in all my favourite colours.

lol,
daddy bought an mp4 for my birthday -.o
i was only joking when i said it like last month,
but he really buy sia. LOL.
cool shit.
luv you daddy :D
but not all the time.

painted boyfriend's toenails pink and purple ytd.
LOL!!!!!
celebrated jesser's birthday.
grace didnt come :(
jesser got an icecream cake!!!!!!!!! :O

i made boyfriend play farmer story with me.
and i train him. hehehe :)))))))

oh.
going for the woman who gave birth to me's cousin's wedding later.
going overseas on monday, coming back on friday i guess.
which means i cant celebrate debbie's birthday :(

boyfriend's coming along with my family :DDDDDD
hehehe :)))))))
yay!

okay.
im gonna like transfer my songs into the mp4 now. ;)
i miss debbie and pear :(
its been like so long since i last saw them.
LIKE EARLY NOVEMBER LOR!!!!! :'(
kthxbye. toodley.

2009-12-09T16:48:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE :) !!!! Y

was my birthday yesterday :D
boyfriend came over to my house to fetch me first thing in the morning.
prepared and cabbed to causeway to buy our movie tickets.
headed to boyfriend's house and played uno.
cabbed to causeway to watch new moon :D

the movie is fucking shit la.
it ended and i didnt even realise it.
its like, will marry me?
then i see the lights turn on -.-
stunned sia.

went back to boyfriend's house and played more uno. :D
went to yewtee mac to meet grace and liaozai.
went over to jany's condo after grace finished eating.
shocked when i saw wanyin and jany waiting there :O
i was like offering everyone $5 if they dont bash me.
.__________.

in the end, after taking group photo,
my face kena facial. -.-
oily ley. i'll take revenge one day :(
grateful to those who were there yesterday.
although kinda sad that debbie and pear didnt go. D:

cabbed back to boyfriend's house with liaozai and grace :))))
then my parents keep pressing doorbell sia.
also dont know how they know their address.
and press more than 50 times okay.
fucking irritating.
then is like, everyone came out,
but liaozai told them not to open the door.
but my parents stayed outside for like one hour.
liaozai gave us a brilliant idea -.-
boyfriend dressed in jogger attire.
then blahblahblah.
went to bryan's house for one hour.
challenged boyfriend bubble popper.
OWNAGE! :D
went to play swing.
headed back.

and im still here :D
dont know if i should go home today.
its like, my birthday they also dont wanna give me face.
and as if the house is theirs, press the doorbell until everyone dulan.
somemore it was like after midnight. -.-
this kind of parents, who want?
i can give to you for free man.
i swear i'll kill my mother one day.
maybe drown her when she's bathing or something.

okay bye.

2009-12-07T01:16:00.001+08:00

my birthday is in 22hours 44min! :)))))

happy birthday chloe!

okay goodnight.

2009-12-06T01:23:00.005+08:00

hate me, love yourself.

rebecca and qama's birthday hours ago. :)
happy birthday girls! :b

ohmygoodness :D
my birthday is coming :))))))))))))))
hehehe.

currently addicted to animal kaizer. LOL!!!
its the game you can find in arcades or 7-11 nowadays :D
kinda fun lor, i got more than 20 cards already (HAHAHA).

hmm,
going to cousin's house tmr,
suspect i'll go to her house downstairs 7-11 to play with boyfriend.
and i have to say ownage to boyfriend for almost every game we play la.
maybe cos he let me.
i wouldnt know anyway, lol :B

ummm.
sorry for leaving my blog to rot and die :D
i changed songs already okay.
i'll try to update more often.
cos im like out almost everyday till late.
then i'll play my facebook games and farmerstory then no time for blog.
farmerstory isnt countrystory in facebook.
its maple private server.
OH YA, I SAW SOMEONE WITH MY AUDI EX IGN.
LOL DAMN COOL RIGHTS.
and its like, our names so similar :D
like one letter difference ^^

gonna susu then go to sleep.
kthxbye.
toodley! :)

WHERE'S MY PRESENT, EVERYONEEEEE?

2009-11-30T21:25:00.003+08:00

i love to be loved by you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE WU Y!

heehee. im at boyfriend's house now :D
not going home today, cos daddy simply pissed me off :))))))))
going to watch movie tmr.
and tmr's a very happy day! :}}}}}}
umm.
oh ya, didnt go for class bbq today, hehehe.
whats the point of going when the 3ps not coming?
not fun la, cannot disturb them HAHAHAH.
feel free to ask me what 3ps mean okay! LOL!!!!!
its easy to guess anyway, :DDDD

okay im gonna go bathe already.
till next time.
kthxbye. toodley.

2009-11-23T12:52:00.002+08:00

the world is so small.

left home about 10plus, played hide and seek with mom.
saw the lift reaching my level, jitao run to staircase.
then peep and saw mom. lol.
but she didnt see me :b
totally freezing in boyfriend's room now.
and he's sleeping like a wood block cos i cant wake him up l:

sometimes i wish you'd get angry with me or just shout at me,
rather than keeping quiet.
i'm like too afraid to do anything when you're like that.
you cant really blame me for not forgetting him you know.
i mean like, i dont love him anymore.
but how can you forget someone you were close to and used to love so much?
is like, he's still friends with me nowwwwww.
i guess?

hope you dont see this anyway :(
and please please,
if you see this,
dont ask or talk anything of it to me.
kthxbye.

2009-11-20T00:17:00.004+08:00

you can be your own miracle.

boyfriend came over today :)
boyfriend's coming over tmr.
then i'll go watch his match again :D

as i said,
nameless taggers simply lack balls.
if you want me to be nice to you,
then prove to me you are worthy.
what has your loving to suck old man balls gotta do with my blog?
you love blowjobs = i bitch?
LOL! too bad, im not offended. :)
look somewhere else to promote your taste buds.
and please dont moan in my blog,
its horribly disgusting.
i'll be honest with you.
if you're looking for old man dicks,
look somewhere else cos i see no old man here.
you can leave your number here if you want,
i can help you promote your mouth by writing your number all around singapore.
with a price duh,
you think what, free advertiser? :))))

bye! :D
so im a bitch.
wow ! :))))
coolz, im gonna sleep like a bitch.
HAHAH.

OH YA!
daddy bought me DKNY perfume.
hehehe. :D
and he chose the more volume one lor. which is more expensive.
and and daddy bought me coloured contacts too! :)
even though i didnt meet his expectations for SA2. :D
i just remembered bout these 2. LOL!
and he spent more than $300 on me in less than 1 hour that day.
thanks daddy.
luv you :))))))

so im a money-eating bitch.
who cares? HAHAHAHHAHAA.

2009-11-18T19:09:00.002+08:00

where the stars dont shine.

i forgot what i did all week.
only remember going to wanyin's band thing on saturday.
went to ahma's house after that.
watched 2012 with boyfriend.
sunday, went with boyfriend to his bbq thing.
boyfriend stayed over :D

boring week cos daddy's at home almost everyday i guess.
not sure if daddy's at home tmr.
okay bye!

2009-11-12T23:02:00.002+08:00

its now or never.

kind of tired already.
can barely open my eyes ):

have been spending like everyday with boyfriend.
hope this doesnt become a habit or i'll die if i dont see him for a day.
should keep telling myself absence make the heart go stronger.
shouldnt be that sticky, right?
LOL. l:

boyfriend came to my house in the morning while i was still asleep.
saw the msg and ran towards the door. LOL.
and he just left about 10 mins ago, hmm.

boyfriend's coming to my house in the morning.
then idk if we're going out,
but boyfriend's coming with me to fetch daddy from airport tmr.
dont know our plans after that.
going for wanyin's band investiture on saturday.
boyfriend's coming along too :D

hmm.
nothing much to say.
finished watching pokemon.
waiting for the new episode to release.

guess im going to sleep.
facebook is pissing me off.
goodnight. :D

2009-11-11T01:02:00.003+08:00

if tomorrow never comes.

guess i should like just do a quick update before i go to bed,
cos i havent been updating for a long long time!

have been spending everyday with boyfriend :))))))
only remember boyfriend coming along to family dinner on saturday.
went with boyfriend to meet joevin and bryan after that.
went to send daddy off to airport on sunday with boyfriend.
boyfriend stayed.
boyfriend sent me to school and went home.
boyfriend fetched me from school and came to my house.
boyfriend went for training after sending me to gracie's house to help her bake.
boyfriend came to my house on monday after his training.
went to support boyfriend for his friendly match at zhenghua cc earlier on.
headed to tw, then headed home with boyfriend.

in like hours time,
im going to go to boyfriend's house :)
then after awhile we're gonna fetch gracie from school and head back to his house.

not planning to go to school for the rest of the week.
it just feels as if i cant catch up with homework.
not that i plan to do,
but i just dont feel obligated to do.
and when i dont do or turn up for lessons,
teachers threaten to drop me to NA.

no link.
just like how my index finger cant touch my pinky without another finger pushing it.

like so not happening.
dont have to bother counting how many boyfriend(s) i typed.
i know it myself that i dont spend enough time with others already.
sorry.

okay goodnight.
im like missing boyfriend already.

2009-11-05T09:45:00.002+08:00

tears dont fall.

it has been so long since i updated, LOL.
teacher gave us a break during dnt :)
4 hours straight of dnt today, coolz or what ?

ending school at 2.30 today :(
umm hmm, sad case .
going to boyfie's house after school.
yay! :D

okay toodley.
at least i updated. :))))))

2009-11-01T15:30:00.001+08:00

i didnt wanna believe it then.

HIHIHIHIHIHIHI!:D
i havent go home yet LOL.
gracie's like nagging at me to go home -.-
mom says she wanna terminate my phone line.
so worst case, contact me through my old number :/
or home phone -.-

dont think i can go out this weekend, lol.
mom's like so irritating and went to call everyone up to ask my whereabouts -____-
when i get hold of my ic i'll go change my address i tell you.
live in the same house as her, life really cannot tahan. heh.

got sch tmr.
like so sian.
i hate cheok.
and he still owe me $3 -.-
that time take $3 from me cos he say i no name tag,
until now no name tag come to me.
suspect he eat my $3 .__.

feel so useless.
is like i've given them so much and i have nothing to give you.
idk what to think.
iluvyou.

toodley.

2009-10-31T20:26:00.006+08:00

sometimes you wanna run away, aint got the patience for the pain.

ytd.
prepared and went to meet kenny to help me buy things.
cabbed to meet jialat while gracie cabbed to fetch tarantula from camp.
cab to amk hub around 10plus.
went to arcade cos we still had 1 hour to our show.
played the catch catch thingy,
and i'll have to thank the uncle who helped me catch 2 bunnies :D
watched my girlfriend is an agent.
after the movie, damn high when i saw wanyin and manke!!! :)
didnt expect to see them there lor :b
cabbed back to tarantula's house.
didnt sleep much the whole night.
keep waking up and falling back asleep.
probably slept for about 2 hours in total, lol.

today.
the moment i opened my eyes,
tarantula and gracie smiled at me like some idiot.
LOL!!! :B
stayed in the room for hours.
challenged jialat audition, LOL.
and i missed for flying duck.
wtf. i regret mia-ing -.-

gracie, tarantula and jialat is out. :)))))
im like so lazy to even dress up and make up that i stayed here. lol.
another reason is cos im left with like a few sticks :(
and i just realised if i went out just now,
i could've asked tarantula to help me buy.
heh. regret man. l:

i've finished playing my facebook games :(
so bored.

everything is changing.
i dont know what to do now.
i guess its too late to regret.
forgive me,
im just afraid to fall in love again.

2009-10-30T19:57:00.001+08:00

you're the only one.

coolz.
everyone's resting in the room except me.
im still playing my playfish games, LOL.
i guess we're going out soon.
probably around 8 or 9.

not going home today,
will blog tmr.
cya :)

2009-10-29T22:12:00.004+08:00

i'll have you so tongue-tied.

FUCK LEYYYY :(
THE WOMAN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO ME FUCKING DOESNT WANT TO CHANGE THE TIME AND DATE FOR PTC TMR.
SHE FUCKING DOESNT WANT TO HELP ME LIE TO CHARMAINE LIM COS SHE KNOWS IM GOING OUT TMR.
FUCK IT LEY!

I WANNA SEE HIM TMR!
I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN LEY.
WHY IS THE WOMAN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO ME SUCHA BITCH?
CANT SHE UNDERSTAND HE'S SO CUTE?
lol -.-

.............
why ptc tmr !!!!
cant it be like another date since we got 2 extended weeks of school?
fuck it.
fuck my parents.
fuck the school.
fuck cheok.
fuck yong tau foo.
fuck every living teacher in this fucking school.

I WANNA GO OUT TMR,
AND I'LL PON PTC IF I HAVE TO.
I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN,
EVEN IF MY PARENTS DONT GIVE ME MONEY TMR.
AND I WONT GO HOME TILL SUNDAY NIGHT IF THEY FORCE ME TO GO FOR PTC.

DONT THEY GET IT.
BY THE TIME PTC END,
THEN I HEAD TO MEET THEM,
I'LL HAVE TO HEAD HOME ALREADY LA.
SOMEMORE SHE KNOWS IM NOT GOING HOME TMR,
STILL KP.
SINCE SHE KNOW I NOT GOING HOME TMR,
CANT SHE LIKE CHANGE THE FUCKING DATE AND TIME RIGHT.
NBZ.

charmaine lim ruined my love life :(
my parents destroyed the chance i got to see him :(
fuck everyone.
fuck the whole wide world.
fuck the fucking teaching dogs in the fucking school.

toodley.
i'll run away from home again if i have to.

fyi,
im not refering to anyone you're thinking of.
you cant possibly know cos i havent even posted this person's name.
so stop wondering.

2009-10-28T19:02:00.006+08:00

your love's too good to be true.

IM A HAPPY GIRL!

I PROMOTED TO SEC4 EXPRESS :)))))
even though i failed overall :/

my boyf said hi to me ytd when i saw him at the canteen.
so sweet right, lmao.
if you dont get it, he's just my teacher, and i dont have feelings for him. :D
saw him today, wonder how long i can hide my emotions.
:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
toodley.

2009-10-26T15:10:00.007+08:00

i think we're taking things too far.

bmf is 1 year 1 month old! :)))))))

saturday.
woke up like damn early, for dont know what reason.
prepared and stayed at home to play comp for awhile then went over to gracie's house.
cabbed down to tarantula's house and went up and blahblahblah .
around 7, bus-ed to town with grace and tarantula to meet jiazhen and mrgongz .
they ate subway and i found an orange balloon floating beside an escalator.
went to meet celeste, xiner, wanling and china porcupine .
then mr china porcupine called me balloon girl -.-
i choose jerry's songs and screamed like mad at kbox.
kbox till 3am and reach the spider's house about 4+ .
went to bathe and sleep on the bed beside mrjialat.

sunday.
woke up around 2+ and played peekaboo with mrjialat .
unintentional okay, lol.
stayed for awhile in the room then went to watch jaren and jesser play audition.
they like damn funny , looking for hack ._.
then went to watch mrjialat play maple :))))))))
thank god i quitted years ago.
watch already so boring, cant imagine playing.
tarantula went to cook and blahblahblah.
mrjialat is a soreloser .
we havent even played together yet, he dont want to challenge me :(
cos he claims he's noob -.-.

helped jesser do story till like 8+,
cabbed home with grace after that.
no pictures at all, cant believe i forgot.

today.
went to see doctor.
woke up at like 8.45 in the morning :/
blahblahblah. went home around 1.

there's school tmr.
what a long day, dont feel like going ley l:
sigh. lets just hope i promote :)

even though i love you, i cant have you.
even though i hate you, i cant erase you .
maybe i'll see you.

toodley. whatifimfallinginluvwithyou?

2009-10-25T23:44:00.001+08:00

will blog about sat and today when i come back from the doctors' tmr.
dont feel well.
seeya.

toodley. i think i like him.

2009-10-23T19:09:00.004+08:00

我还不了解永远有多远,

i still havent get back my stuff lor -.-
dont be irritating, seriously.
gonna be two weeks already hello .
its either something wrong with you or your calendar .

how great. i fail overall. HAHAHA .
299.2/600 .
cool or what ?
short of 0.8 marks sia.
hopefully charmaine lim helps me :(

if you hear chinese song,
ITS SUNG BY JERRY BTW !!! :DDDDDD .
i mean f4 la.
another song he solo, DONT HAVE THE REST OF F4 :)))))
jerry's voice is so distinguishable :$ .
heeeheee .
and mommy thinks im mad cos im laughing and blushing at the monitor.
i think she suspect got problem with me .
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
bobian. jerry so cute.

oh anyways, i passed geog for the first time this year :O .
and i almost passed combine humanities .
COOLZ RIGHT .
but fail la. lol.

and my dnt passed :(
but only 54.8 :/
like so sad right.
i think my boyf will be so disappointed in me.
i havent seen him in a very long time already .
wonder if he miss me, HAHAHAHA .
tho i dont miss him :))))
what you expect, HE GOT WIFE LEY!
and im not interested anyway, just that he treats me damn good.

had some stupid maths test thingy today,
do halfway and fell asleep.
THEN THE STUPID STUPID TEACHER COME WAKE ME UP.
lucky its not the cheena pork,
or i'll pay for her airticket and send her back to china .
sorry ah, budget airline :)
SQ you wait longlong :)))))))
then just onlined awhile ago and zen told me he saw me sleeping.
aww, wonder how many other people know.
like so embarrassing :/ .

okay, im not sure if im going out tmr.
hope i am, dont want to stay at home tmr .
but ah, also dont feel like going out .
lol.
blahblahblah .

okay toodley.
im gonna buy @cash very soon .
my bunny's dead and my premium messenger expire already .
sad case :(.

2009-10-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

what if our love never went away?

change the colors of the sky and
open up to the ways you made me feel alive,
and the ways i loved you.
for all the things that never died,
to make it through the night,
love will find you.

happy birthday kokliang.
(annoyed)

surprisingly,
i only went for less than an hour's shopping cos my younger sis wanted to come along.
so had to wait for her tuition to end before heading down to vivo.
then, had to fetch mommy from work, so i had less than an hour :(

and i spent only $151.8o!
lol, improvement rightz . :D

sian ley ,
tmr have to wear uniform,
then change to pe.
then still have to stay till 5 .
and i havent sleep until now.
i think im gonna sleep during assembly tmr, LOL.
cannot take it anymore .

alrightz.
im gonna end my conversation with shushu ,
then im gonna go 'puff' then go sleep after that. LOL.
sounds familiar?
think about someone's blog,
always post saying, 'puffed. went to find someone. puffed. blahblahblah'
:)))))))))
scared no one know she smokes, lol.

toodley. ;)

2009-10-18T21:05:00.001+08:00

you're like a hard candy with a surprise centre ,

happy birthday, linus.

regret not going out today.
like so bored only !!!!!! :(

purposely nua in bed till like 12+,
then finally go out to see the light.
then played facebook games and watch tv all the way till now .

is like so bored until i go play roller coaster kingdom.
cos my younger sis has been like disturbing me to play and hire her -.-
and that game is like so... lame ._.
thats the only word you can use to define that game .

kinda relieved im going out tmr, lol .
then at least i wouldnt be so bored at home, hah :))))))

return me , i dont give a damn whether its your bday tmr or not.

going shopping at vivo tmr! :D.
yay, another shopping spree! ^^.
im sorry if you're jealous, but all i have is money . (HAHAHA)
spot me. :))))))

toodley! :B

2009-10-16T17:54:00.004+08:00

我宁可记得所有伤心,

had my afternoon nap and woke up thinking and thinking.
or rather, i've been thinking for the past few weeks.

i dont know why im having this empty feeling .
feel so hollow, so invisible.
i didnt get ignored or anything la, dont think too much about it.
i just hate this feeling.

i feel happier without you,
but then again , i feel empty without you .
tell me what im feeling .
is it longing? or is it simply love that hasnt faded away?
or tell me, is it me liking someone else when my heart is still with you ?
how ironic .

though i can easily say,
i dont love you anymore,
somehow i think of you every night .
sigh :/
i dont like this at all.

how i wish, this is all over so that love can start all over again.
maybe.
or do i not want it to be over ?

when i dont feel this way anymore,
hopefully i dont have insomnia anymore .
then i probably wont have to fake smiles anymore, lol.
sounds so weird to say this cos you see me smiling everyday.

oh fuck it.
im gonna dota and imagine thats you,
and then im gonna pwn you till im dominating.
lol .

-_____-
toodley.
nae sarang ha ni?
i wont let love put me down.

2009-10-15T20:46:00.002+08:00

i can do what she can do so much better.

hanako so pathetic,
only know how to por people on plurk when people dont even give a damn.
she say people ask her go clubbing sia.
dont step one want save money ley ,
no money say, dont say want to save money.
pathetic pork .
didnt know you so poor sia,
every post of yours say go buy cig,
like scared noone know you smoke like that .
if smoking is a great big deal , then there will not be pigs on earth already.
read between the lines, unless you're too dumb :))))
if you ever go club,
you better run far.
dont let me see you , and this is only a warning.

let me tell you a sad truth.
i failed all 3 papers returned today, LOL!
physics is like almost lor. :(
maths : 28/100
mt : 44/100 (i improved :D)
physics : 23.5/50 (but havent combine with chem & mcq yet)

when liew wei yang returned the papers,
i smiled when i got mine.
then people thought i passed sia.
then i was like HAHAHAHA 28 la.
then they were like 'chey!'
cos i expected myself to fail what, so whats the point of being disappointed? :B

i think dnt, chem and ss results.
if i fail ss/dnt/geog,
im gonna say double g,
cos i'll fail overall .

then i'll say, get ready for an extra year.

okay toodley.
EH DONT PISS ME OFF LEY.
TODAY THURSDAY ALREADY HOR!

2009-10-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

where would you go, if i gave all my love to you.

angang was at my house just now,
so im gonna blog about ytd :)))))))

went to kbox ytd.
with vivian, julia, jaime, angang and bmf.
like fun only .
& vivian kept taking photos non stop.
potential photographer , lol.

went to lotone after that for dinner .
went to roof garden for more pictures to be taken ._.

pictures:

me and wanyin .

jany and me .

huiyu and me. (whats up with my face? -.-)

shumin and me.

julia and me .

me and vman. (look at my face , like funny. LOL!!)
look at my dimples :O

me and debbie.

pear and me .

enen and angang.

enen and angang.

enen and angang .

went drinking with vivian, julia and angang after that.
shushu came along :))))

& i just realised i havent posted the pictures taken overseas.
okay im lazy, so im not posting them.
maybe another time, but i wouldnt bet on it if i were you.
sorry l:

so numb right now.
i just want my stuff back so i can carry on with life.
how irritating can you be ?
sarang homnida. :(

toodley,
and school reopens tmr.
i think some papers will be returned .
oh fuck it.
dont feel like seeing you tmr. :/
sigh.

2009-10-12T14:15:00.005+08:00

i just cant do without you, you're all i need.

hanako so cute right.
i know , LOL .
buey pai, threaten sia.
all words no action , tsk.
come come, i'm waiting.
on her blog still say got dogs reading her blog sia .
sadly, i feel that the owner of the blog of hers is more dog than whoever she's refering to ley.
wuji just come, dont keep farting hot air ,
in school step one shy pork, see me dont dare look at me ,
outside step like one big fuck glutton.
sorry, no one's entertaining you please. :)
sad for you pig, i see that you've changed clothes again.
(well if you dont understand, i meant that you've changed boyf again.)

ohwells, my phone's spoilt again, lol .
must be because i took picture of hanako, hmm.
cos the graphics got problem now, LOL!!!
so changed back to the stupid motorola phone,
so goodnews, you guys can call me again.
but bad news, the battery runs out fast .

what a nice way to remember you.
changed sim card and switched on the motorola phone,
and guessed what.
i saw my inbox filled with YOUR messages -_____-
and stupidly, instead of deleting them, i read them -.-
damn it to hell.
go get roasted with hanako .

out with elaine ytd.
pasir ris, tampines, bugis.
blahblahblah :))))))

today,
prolly not going out,
saving the money so i can spend more tmr.
already bought mm the moment i woke up,
so dont fear i'll die at home :D
wait, i think im going out at night .
lets see my mood then :))))))

going out tmr, most likely the whole day, yay! :O
wednesday going out again, hope i see porknice on the way.
i'd like to see her with her new set of clothes .
(if you dont understand again, you can refer above.)

goodbye sucker.
return me today!
ITS MONDAY ALREADY HELLO.

toodley .

2009-10-10T16:40:00.000+08:00

everything i want comes right down to you,

你值得我放弃 :)
so dont get thinking you're irreplaceable.
2 more days till i get my stuff back ,
though i wont bet on it that you'll return it to me .
suckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

wed,
met wanyin, angang and manke at mac before heading to sch for chem paper tgt.
gracie's house after that.
watched rugrats go wild, finding nemo and hotshot .
homed.

thurs,
homed after physics paper .
prepared , headed to angang's house to wait for her change.
once she's done changing, cabbed to calvin's house .
waited downstairs for zhenwei , gave him his stuff,
went up, watched hotshot, and called for mac delivery .
cabbed home after that.

fri,
prepared for sch,
headed downstairs to meet gracie for awhile,
bused to sch .
bused home with pear after dnt paper.
she waited for me to prepare.
after awhile gracie came.
went down tgt, gracie went to meet her sis ,
we went to meet wanyin, jany, vivian, shumin, julia, huiyu.
bused to orchard.
blahblahblah .
bused back to lot.
bused to go find someone .
bused home with vivian and julia.

today ,
woke up late, so jany, julia, shumin, huiyu and wanyin headed there first.
met wy and huiyu while jany, shumin and julia went swimming.
stayed at gym for around 2 hours .
bused home with wy and huiyu.

no school till thursday.
clubbing on monday .
yay ! :))))))))))

sigh.
i keep thinking of you .
i dont know what to do already :/
i just cant do without you.
i miss you so .

im gonna play my facebook games,
not sure if im going out later or tmr .
okay, toodley .
my heart beats for only you.

2009-10-06T20:41:00.002+08:00

what would you do? :(

have to say maths paper sucked today.
left more than 30 marks blank, lol .
i think papa's gonna be disappointed in me l:
and then i wont get my puppy :(

ss sucked even more .
did 2 questions and went to sleep after that.
no point doing when i'd still not get my toy poodle, right?

went to lot with wy, pear, debbie, vivian, jany.
shumin, julia and huiyu came after that .
had lunch, walked around, and homed.
I BOUGHT JERRY AND JIHOO PHOTO CARDS !!!!!!!!!!!
dabing bought her junpyo cards, lol.

YIPEEEE :DDDDDDDDD
&& you know right, i show my maid the jerry ones.
then she say handsome.
yay ! :))))))

okay toodley.
i hope i dont luv you .

2009-10-05T15:07:00.002+08:00

my heart beats for only you ,

oh man .
dont feel like talking l;
is like totally no mood to do anything , wtf .
and who made me like this?
you, so go away.
return me my stuff before i go for clubbing on the 12th.
thank you and have a nice day :) .

went shopping with angang and pear on sat.
only rmb spending about $179.40,
but i know i spent more than that, just that i cant rmb .
walked around lot for awhile,
around 7 plus went to meet wy, vivian, debbie and huiyu at mrt customer service.
went to ntuc and bought something,
weird that i could pass .
oh shit , that means i look old.
mother fucker.
waited for jany to come, and went to meet adi before
heading off to julia's house.

played sparklers like some fucking immature kids ,
but not bad what, we're like so cute.
lol -.-
then blahblahblah.
i luv my bestie :)
thanks for being there.

sunday,
appeared offline on msn for awhile before heading down to meet grace.
went home to bathe and prepare,
then cabbed to calvin's house.
nicholas the weirdo and aron were there .
after awhile weihao came.
read geog till i fell asleep on calvin's bro bed.
then his bro was like '有人睡在我床上!'
lol, then after that he said '不懂, 我不认识的.'
then i kept laughing.
kpz right.
then slept on calvin's bed for hours.
woke up for awhile and watched them play god of war on psp
before falling asleep again.
when i woke up, they all go home already, lol .
cabbed home after that.
went out again, then went home around 1am .

was like last minute studying in the morn and the fucking om and camy ong
keep yaking and yaking and yaking,
then i cannot concentrate -.- .
did the geog paper and i swear i could die doing it.
left most of the questions blank anyway .
like, how you expect me to know the answers when i didnt even study ytd
cos i fell asleep, then morning still so noisy.
correct right ?

one hour break, went to cut my nails.
cos charmaine lim said those without socks or long nails cannot take the next paper .
sibei lj i tell you.
and now my nails are like , SO SHORT !!!!!!!!!!!! ):
HOW TO GO CLUBBING?!?!?!
completed physics and chem paper in around 15 min,
and went to sleep .
thank god its not that cheena pork :D
or i'll gonna say 'fuck you.'
and go back to sleep .

cc then blk 6 after that.
bus home with grace .
im gonna play my facebook games and take a nap after that.
then i'll wake up to look for the stupid mathematical set i need tmr .
and i dont have the sense of urgency that its examinations yet.
dont know which paper then i'll finally feel it.

ss and maths tmr,
double g la .
goodbye. (K)
i miss bestie.